Its been a long way down, lets leave it at that. Things worked themselves out in a way that least benefitted me. Should I be happy? should I be angry? Should I be depressed? I don't know, im just sure i was tired this morning.
My mind is full of ideas that are either smart, or totally dumb. I don't think im very hit or miss in that regard. The block is gone, its totally missing now which is great. I can think of a couple of factors why, but it makes sense only for the last one. I can write again, which is great because i miss expessing myself on here, even it is often cryptic and misleading.
Life is going slowly now, much like this time last summer, but there is a difference, my future is clear, there is a path to follow, which is good. Having a vision for the future is hard, but sometimes compromise is the best way to secure a future in which i am happy on many different levels.
Everything seems fairly frustrating right now, but life is not meant to be easy. But it really looks like my exhuastion is catching up with me tonight.
....and i feel so bohemain like you.....